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Signs of Spirit
Signs of Spirit
In 2005, we became aware that even though spirit is invisible to the eye, it’s characteristics can be observed in ourselves and others.
Signs of Spirit are evidence of the existence of the unseen spirit. They are characteristics that can be observed in ourselves and others. Once known and recognized as coming from spirit, we can choose to activate and cultivate them in ourselves, thus living as spirits in daily life.
We call these characteristics “signs of spirit” because they demonstrate the presence of spirit, just as a heartbeat and breathing our “signs of life” for the body.
We have been writing first-person short stories about our experiences observiing signs of spirit in ourselves and others and also about how we intentionally use these spirit abiities in our daily lives.
Our intent in sharing these stories is to make it more kown in the world that spirit exists and exists in each and every human being in addition to all of Life. Perhaps our stories will inspire you to find these signs of spirit in yourself and others.
The Right Decision
by Debra Redalia
My surgery was originally scheduled for 31 March. Then itt was rescheduled for 6 March and I accepted. Only one week later, the hospitals in San Francisco no longer allowed visitors and two weeks later there electrive surgeries are no longer being allowed. Even if they would have considered giving me surgery after 20 March, it would be in a hospital overstressed by Covid-19. So not only did everything line up perfectly for the surgery, the re-scheduled date was just in time for me to have the surgery and be discharged before covid-19 became pandemic.
In addition, my pathology results came back and my body is completely cancer-free. No need for any follow-up chemoterapy or radiation. I'm done.
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At the beginning of December 2019, my body had some alarming symptoms that caused me to rush my body to the Emergency Room. After giving my body some tests, the emergency room doctor said, “You need to see your doctor right away about a possible malignancy.”
I was out of town at the time and my symptoms began to subside, so I waited until I got home, and saw my doctor. She sent me to a specialist, who took a biopsy sample from my body.
“It’s cancer,” she said. “But your prognosis is favorable. It looks like stage 1, so we can just do a surgery and remove it and you’ll be done with it.”
But it wasn’t so easy for me to accept having cancer or having surgery. I’ve had a number of family members and friends lose their bodies to cancer. And I didn’t want to spend the rest of my life running around looking for ways to cure the specific cancer in my body.
I also didn’t want surgery. I’ve never had surgery. I’ve never been a patient in a hospital. I’ve had eye surgery and dental work, but neither of these involved going to a hospital, having anesthesia, or spending even one night in a hospital.
In addition, surgery felt like a failure to me as a spiritual being. Shouldn’t I be able to just intend my body to wellness?
I didn’t want to just rush to surgery without considering all the options, so while the doctors and insurance were going through their process to get me to surgery, I did my own process of researching alternative routes. The problem was, alternative treatments for cancer are very specific to the type of cancer, and they couldn’t figure out what type of cancer it was. After another biopsy and several scans, they still couldn’t determine the type of cancer or what caused it.
But I was noticing there was something different about these doctors, and indeed, everyone on the staff at this hospital. They were respectful and courteous. They listened to me. They answered my questions. The first doctor even called me personally on a Sunday afternoon the day before my appointment to go over what we were going to do to get another biopsy and to answer any questions. She was so kind and gentle and caring. And then when I was passed along to the oncologist, she was just the same. She spent two hours with me discussing the biopsy results and what we needed to do next, she referred me to integrative medicine department and got a social worker in touch with me to help me with all the non-medical details and to see what support programs I qualified for.
“It’s a rare type of cancer,” the oncologist told me. “And aggressive.” Cancer cells were proliferating. They didn’t know what caused this type of cancer. There was nothing I could have done to prevent it. It wasn’t a type that would be caused by toxic chemical exposure or any other common risk factor. Why it happened was a mystery, but they knew they could do surgery and remove it.
There was actually no natural treatment for this cancer beyond taking steps to create more health. But could I create health faster than the cancer cells could multiply? And could I just create a spontaneous remission?
There was delay after delay. I tried to do alternative things, but they just wouldn’t happen. I couldn’t get appointments. But also, it just wasn’t clear what to do to treat this rare type of cancer in any way except to remove it.
And so I did what I do: I used my spiritual skills. First, I simply intended that my body would not only survive this cancer, but it would move up to a new level of health. In my own spiritual awareness, the tumor was already gone and my body was healthy and whole.
Then I asked what the cause was. Since there was no clear physical cause, there must be a mental cause or a spiritual cause.
Within a few days, I had an idea that there was a mental/emotional issue that was related to the body part where the tumor was. It had to do with suppressing aliveness in my body in a certain way.
Also at about that time, my doctor showed me a picture of the tumor from a scan. It was bigger than I thought it was. And seeing the scan, it physically became very real to me, whereas before it was just an idea. While my body wasn’t going to die tomorrow, if I did not do something now to handle the cancer, it would metastasize and my body would die.
“This is life-threatening,” my doctor said.
Again my vision was a healthy body without a tumor.
In fact, a scan showed some evidence that it may have already spread to my lungs. Another scan, however showed my lungs to be free of cancer. Finally, it was established that the cancer was confined to that one body part, and it could be completely removed with surgery.
Once I saw this connection between the afflicted body part and the issue in my life, I could see the exact thing I had been creating over and over in my life. At first, this anti-life thought had just manifested itself in various ways in my life that were not life-threatening. But now, since I hadn’t seen it, it was now manifesting as life-threatening cancer.
While waiting for the second scan, I had realized I could do something about the thought in my mind that very clearly was manifesting as cancer. It was something buried so deep I had never seen it before in all of my years of self-introspection, and it went to the very core of my creativity and aliveness. I couldn’t see the exact thought but could see the repeated manifestations from it.
So I sat down in front of my computer in the middle of the night one night when it was quiet and dark and just started typing every manifestation of this thought I became aware of. Thirteen pages in three hours. I wrote the year and my age and a brief description of what happened. Just the facts. No evaluation or emotion. And by the end, I felt released from my past actions and made a decision that I did not need to continue to create these manifestations.
I had been envisioning that the tumor was already gone, now it just needed a means to leave my body. And that means to leave my body showed up very soon.
Within about 24 hours, I went to the hospital and got another scan that would answer the question about whether or not the cancer had metastasized. And it had not. The cancer was completely contained in the tumor and so it could be removed. And it could be removed with a robot-assisted laparoscopic surgery, which is the simplest, least-invasive surgery there is, with the fastest healing time.
At this point, everything speeded up. They had saved a surgery date for me of 31 March, but suddenly they rescheduled someone else so they could do my surgery on 6 March, which was only a week away. The would do the surgery and the tumor would be gone.
I had made a reservation to spend the night in a hospitality house provided by the hospital for patients having surgery the following day for 30 March, but when I called to change the date, there were no rooms available. Within one hour they called back and told me someone had just canceled and a room was now available for me.
And this hospital is one of the best in the country. It’s no ordinary hospital. It’s part of the University of California San Francisco. It’s a highly regarded teaching hospital. The cancer buildings are newly built, but they are LEED certified (to be green and nontoxic) and they are fragrance-free. You walk into this hospital and everything is clean and orderly, the air is fresh, and if you stand there for a minute or two someone will walk up to you with a smile and ask you if you need help. The first time I went there, they took me in for my service before my appointment time.
In addition—I have never seen this before—they have a “zero tolerance for violence” in their facilities. They even have posters about this all around, as ubiquitous as no smoking and fragrance-free signs. "UCSF is committed to maintaining a safe workplace that is free from threats and acts of intimidation and violence...weapons, knives, alcohol, illegal drugs and other dangerous materials are not allowed in our facilities. It is the expectation that you conduct yourself in a respectful, non-violent and non-abusive manner.” This was particularly interesting to me because I have recently been studying violence and non-violence in preparation for writing about this on my new Lifely websites.
This hospital is simply aligned with everything that is important to me.
I had been talking to a friend of mine for several weeks about my dilemma of natural treatment vs surgery. I told him what had happened and he said, “See everything is lining up for you to have the best possible care to remove the cancer from your body.” Even though I was resistant to surgery at first, it was just really clear that surgery at this specific hospital with these specific doctors and staff was the right decision.
THAT OLD STORY ABOUT A MAN WHO WAS STUCK ON A ROOFTOP IN A FLOOD
There’s an old story about a man who was stuck on a rooftop in a flood.
A terrible storm was coming into a town and local officials sent out an emergency warning that the riverbanks would soon overflow and flood the nearby homes. They ordered everyone in the town to evacuate immediately.
A faithful Christian man heard the warning and decided to stay, saying to himself, “I will trust God and if I am in danger, then God will send a divine miracle to save me.”
Neighbors came by his house and said, “There is room for you in our car, come with us!” But the man said. “No, I have faith that God will save me.”
As the man stood on his porch watching the water rise up the steps, a man in a canoe paddled by and called to him, “Come into my canoe, the waters are rising quickly!” But the man again said, “No thanks, God will save me.”
The floodwaters rose higher pouring water into his living room and the man went up to the second floor. A police motorboat came by and saw him at the window. “We will come up and rescue you!” But the man waved them off saying, “God will save me!”
The floodwaters rose higher and higher and the man had to climb up to his rooftop.
A helicopter spotted him and dropped a rope ladder. A rescue officer came down the ladder and said, "Grab my hand and I will pull you up!” Once again the man said “No, God will save me!”
Shortly after, the house broke up and the floodwaters swept the man away. He drowned.
When the man got to Heaven, he stood before God and asked, “I put all of my faith in You. Why didn’t You come and save me?”
And God said, “Son, I sent you a warning. I sent you a car. I sent you a canoe. I sent you a motorboat. I sent you a helicopter. What more were you looking for?”
Though surgery might not seem like the “spiritual” solution, it turned out to be the right decision for me, in my circumstances, for this body, at my level of spiritual awareness and ability.
In the future, I may have the ability to lay my hands on a cancer tumor and have it melt. But for right now, what is coming to my rescue is a surgery, but in the best possible way.
Larry just had an infected tooth for three months while he was waiting for insurance to make a decision and he was very sick the whole time. When we finally stopped waiting for insurance and just paid ourselves to have it pulled, his health recovered within just a few days. I would have surgery if my appendix was about to burst, why not surgery to prevent life-threatening metastasis?
I just want to note that the cancer and the resulting cognitions about its cause didn’t come up until I dedicated myself to living in a manner that was oriented to Life. Having made that commitment, the very thing that was threatening my life came up to be healed and resolved within months (but clearly the tumor had been growing without symptoms for some time).
This hospital is spread all over San Francisco in multiple buildings. The day I went to see my oncologist, we went to a particular building where there were flags attached to streetlight poles with the name of the hospital. And right in front of the building I was about to walk into to see the oncologist, the flag said, “body mind spirit.”
RUDOLPH STEINER AND CANCER
After writing this story I decided to add another piece based on something a friend of mine told me upon hearing about the cancer. She told me that Rudoph Steiner said the physical purpose of tumors was to remove the forces acting against life from the body, gathering them up and continuing them so life could continue to support the body in health. I have no reference for this, it is completely hearsay to me, but it felt right and logical to me intuitively. I began to feel appreciation for the tumor performing its job. But now by giving my body symptoms, it apparently was signaling it had done it’s job and it wanted to be removed.
While searching for a reference for the above, I found something even more interesting about cancer as a disease process.
According to Steiner [in my language], a spirit who has a body with cancer has been too distant to a process going on in its body and its life. All cancers collectively can be described as a process where "our body creates a distorted version of ourselves—one that can endlessly proliferate and move beyond spatial confines.” Therefore, when cancer develops it asks us to look at our own power to make life choices.
And that has certainly what my life has been about. For most of my life I was proliferating a distorted view of myself and only recently have I committed to aligning my actions and my life with who and what I actually am and what is true for me. I am in the process of radically reorganizing my life around Life instead of around industrialized society, being much more true to myself as a spiritual being.
This source also mentions the role of "anthroposophic biography work" being “pivotal” in the process of healing cancer. I didn’t know what this was, so I looked it up. It is looking at one’s human life with it’s rhythms and patterns from an anthroposophic viewpoint. While I’m not trained in this method, looking at the issue I identified as a theme throughout my life was key to working out the puzzle of what was happening with the cancer and my decision to remove it from my body.
But the key factor and lesson of cancer seems to be a spiritual one: to be self-determined in your own life and not be the effect of “things happening to you.” The cancer turned up in an area of my body where I was not being self-determined and I actually found that and became self-determined in that area before my surgery was even scheduled, thus prompting it to be scheduled and end the presence of cancer in my body quickly.
As I was reading about Rudolf Steiner and cancer, mention was made of radical remissions from cancer. The Radical Remission Project found nine healing factors that were used by almost every cancer survivor who had a radical remission of cancer without medical treatment. The nine factors are:
- Radically changing your diet
- Taking control of your health
- Following your intuition
- Using herbs and supplements [with a doctor’s supervision]
- Increasing positive emotions
- Embracing social support
- Deepening your spiritual connection
- Having strong reasons for living
I actually am experiencing all of these in my process. The only difference is that I have chosen to remove the cancer surgically.
For more on radical remission, see Radical Remission: Surviving Cancer Against All Odds.
THE SPIRIT OF LIFE
Several days after writing the above I was talking with a friend about how I started out with a dilemma between wanting to “heal the cancer myself with spirit” and having “surgery” (which to me meant putting my life in the hands of the medical establishment.
She had posed a question to me about what we’re calling the Spirit of Life that creates and exists throughout all life forms (see Our Spirit Viewpoint page 22).
As we were talking, I realized that the Spirit of Life is present in every single person who is involved in this surgery. And each person—especially the doctors—have already demonstrated to me many signs of spirit.
One of my lessons the past few weeks has been that spirit can be present and operating and observable even if the person is not aware that they are spiritual beings. But I see them being and doing various spirit characteristics.
When I realized that the Spirit of Life was present and accounted for in each person I’ve contacted about my surgery, a peace came over me. Spirit has been present in this entire healing and will continue to be present during the surgery and throughout my recovery.
That is just the truth.
I, an individual, don’t have to individually make the cancer disappear.
It is being done by the best means possible considering spirit, mind, and body.
And so it is.
I’m already feeling a new life is about to start after surgery.
Once the time came for the surgery I had no fears, doubts or uncertainties about doing it. I had already done the spiritual work of removing the tumor and its cause, and the surgery was just to clean up the physical remains.
The night before surgery Larry and I stayed at the hospital’s Hospitality House as planned. I had wanted to have dinner at one of my favorite Indian restaurants. I had no idea where it was in relation to the Hospitality House, but as we explored the neighborhood looking for dinner, it turned out this very restaurant I had wanted to go to was only a block and a half away!
I had to stop eating at midnight the night before surgery, so I bought some berries and a bar of dark chocolate for my “last supper.” No food was allowed in the room, so I went to the shared kitchen, got my snack and then asked two women who were sitting at a table playing dominoes if I could join them. They agreed and I sat down. We quickly got into conversation and when I was about to leave they told me how much they enjoyed talking with me and how unusual it is to have a conversation so personal and deep with someone so quickly. They said nobody else who had come into the kitchen had spoken to them at all. Our conversation was of great comfort to me because we talked about cancer and surgeries and we were laughing and talking together as my last activity before I went to sleep and got up at 4am to go to surgery. This conversation was the first time I had the opportunity to talk with others with cancer about treatment. These two women blessed me for good outcome with all their hearts, as “big sisters” who have already been through this.
The following morning, I happily went to surgery, imagining each person doing their job with love and care and skill and having full confidence in the positive outcome I had imagined.
And everything went better than I could have possibly known to imagine.
Everyone from beginning to end was friendly. knowledgeable, and competent. Each person knew exactly what they were doing and there was very little waiting.
Each time I met someone I greeted them warmly and told them I had great confidence in their ability to do their part in making the surgery a success.
When it was time to do the surgery, they gave me the anesthetic through an IV. I didn’t even know it was coming. It was just one minute I was talking with the nurses and then next minute it was over. I had no pain at all, with only Tylenol for pain management.
They had given me a large airy room with a whole wall full of window with a view. I could see San Francisco Bay and sky and sun and clouds. I was up in the sky on the sixth floor. They brought in an extra bed so Larry could be comfortable staying with me until I was strong and clear-minded enough to go home, which was two days.
The only problem I encountered was on the second day when there had been so many blood draws that blood vessels in my body were collapsing. When that happened I silently commanded my body to give the nurse all the blood that she needed and suddenly the blood started flowing again within seconds. I felt self-determined through the entire post-op. Everything I asked for was immediately provided.
It’s clear to me from this experience that even if one’s body develops cancer for whatever reason, the outcome of cancer is in our own hands. There is much each one of us can do it spirit, mind, and body to have a favorable outcome. Spirit is stronger than cancer.
Read more about this experience from different angles at
DEBRA REDALIA, Co-Founder of Spirits Bright, became aware she was a spiritual being when her body was six years old, but didn't learn much about what that meant until she met soulmate Larry Redalia twenty-six years later. Together they have helped each other discover the characteristics of spirit and put them into practice in daily life. Since 2005, Debra and Larry have been writing Signs of Spirit stories—first person accounts of their true life adventures as spiritual belings. The are co-founders of Spirits Bright and The Signs of Spirit Project.
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